december_solstice

It was fan-fucking-tastic. I am not even exaggerating. I was actually there for nearly an hour! I had a very good feeling about the company, the position(s), and everyone I spoke to. The environment, the people, the "culture", and the job itself. It's all very positive. You can tell the people are happy there, which is a big deal. I was given a lot of details - which is such a thoughtful thing to do for your candidates. I spoke to several people and got a really good understanding of the job(s) available and what the expectations and day-to-day would be like. It's perfect. I genuinely enjoy what I would be doing and it sounds exciting and something I would enjoy doing. One of the positions is a pretty classic admin position - answering phones, sitting in front of a computer all day at the front desk. Anything that would be done on a computer would pretty much be my job - including building travel itineraries and ordering groceries! The other job is more of a production assistant which may include some admin work but a lot of it will be assisting the production staff (this is a production agency BTW), as well as running errands, and setting up for events. When it comes down to it, I can do both jobs and have experience doing this type of work. I like both, and would do either happily. The staff were impressed with me (personality) as well as how I look on paper (my resume). I think I vibed really well with them and we really hit it off. I will probably follow up with them before end of day Friday. I think they are interviewing a few different people and I don't want to follow up immediately, but I do want to at least extend a thank you before they leave for the weekend.

Obviously that same night we learned that Donald Trump won the presidency. Red took the whole place - house and senate too. In short, the worst thing that could possibly happen... fucking happened. Tbh, I'm still processing this whole thing. It's one not-so-easy-to-swallow event after another. Can I process this before something else equally ground-shaking comes along? Impossible! It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was legitimately saddened by it. Depressed! For hours. I was both physically and emotionally tired that I napped for 5 hours before sleeping another 12. How can you not think or wonder...how the fuck...did we let this happen? It really hits home, on a personal level, because life is already so incredibly hard and I can't see things becoming any better in the near future (socially, politically or economically). I mean politics aside, (although we should really start familiarizing ourselves with his first 100-day plan), all this has done, and is doing, is celebrating ignorance and bigotry. We're excusing and justifying racism, sexism, and hate. The world (our international allies and investors) are shaking in their boots. Our enemies? Probably grinning from ear-to-ear. And, like I said, politics aside, it is the white nationalism, it's the violence and hate-crimes influenced by his campaign that is terrifying. My husband is a black man, with naturally, not the most friendly face. I mean - he's a big dude! And, he is a target. He dresses and behaves in the most non-menacing way possible, but I am so scared for him. My best friend is a black woman in a very heavily red state, and I am scared for her. Can I safely have kids in such a society? This is the next 4+ years of my life. Can I safety bring a POC child into this world? I am terrified to. But, I'm getting old. My husband is turning 30 next year. We're not getting any younger.