Not too long ago, I made a post about how I sometimes pray in times of great desperation or need. In fact, I realize how natural this kind of reaction is -- probably for everyone, regardless of their faith, religious background or lack there of. The concept of wishing and giving thanks is not at all abnormal to human behavior. It is a coping mechanism and a way to give ourselves the glimmer of hope and reassurance  for the time being.

As an atheist, I used to assume the universe was somewhat conscious. Similar to the concept of a god, just remove the humanistic/male-like representation of his existence. Now, I perceive it as indifferent. I think my lack of belief has done nothing but increased my self-responsibility and illuminated my responsibility to and for humanity.

It seems that, as intelligent as we are, we are not very proactive or reactive. And, we take very little responsibility for humanity. We can fix large issues such as poverty and famine if…IF they were indeed a priority to us. There wouldn’t even be erratic homelessness in developed nations  IF we indeed considered that unacceptable. If the quality of life of human beings were a priority, we would live and behave so differently.

We lack action. What replaces action? I think well-wishes and “good vibes”, prayers especially, is meant well. Yes, it is meant well, but a repercussion of laziness, privilege, and immunity. Similarly how white people can say things such as, “racism is over”. We do not experience the hardship first hand, therefore, I cannot relate, I cannot understand it, it does not exist. In cases where we do accept that these things are real and happening, we still somehow find ways to avoid action. Why is that? Instead of action, purely to benefit another, and to correct a problem, we find ways to instead make ourselves feel better, we find ways instead to benefit ourselves. Why is that?

It is phenomenons such as the “like, comment, share for prayers” on social media (Facebook in particularly), with almost mockery-like banter…which are photographs of disabled, sick, or DEAD persons. Instead of information about this person or child, instead of real attempts at philanthropy, we make a mockery of these individuals. I think it’s sick, to be honest. I think it’s a perfect example of how self-absorbed we are. It’s an example of how much we can deviate from a solution to make ourselves feel better. These posts in particular, which I hate, are only there to generate likes, comments and shares -- more than likely, in order to generate revenue.



You're probably thinking -- She's been born again! God has spoken to the poor girl!.

Er...not exactly, fam.

Actually, the exact opposite has happened.

I think embracing (more like humoring) the idea of faith pushed me further towards the reality that our lives are very much our own and there is no outside force leading the world in which we live in. That our reality has ultimately been created by us. Our reality is of our making.

I realized humans reach out for faith, for comfort, in a time of great need. In a moment of desperation, when we feel powerless, when we believe ourselves to be weak, we want it so desperately for God, religion, and such to be true -- that a higher power will save us. Will love us. Will make us IMPORTANT. Will make us MATTER.

Similarly how we want so desperately there to be life after death, to be forgiven for our sins, that there is more to our existence than this -- that we are NOT insignificant in this great wide indifferent universe. A universe that has thrived without us for billions of years before we entered the picture, and ultimately, will thrive without us, for billions of years after we are out of the picture.

This is a hard to swallow. No human heart wants to feel this way -- wants to accept that life goes on once we're dead. That the plants, trees, planets, and so on are unaffected by our existence.

And, I get that. I can understand why faith exist. Why gods have been a part of our lives for hundreds of thousands of years. Why we worshiped the sun. Why we worshiped the stars. Why we worships gods. Because life is hard. Because we're HUMAN. We feel things. Because feeling obsolete is difficult. Because hope feels good. Because God is a beautiful delusion.

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