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1.2b lottery & other things
Jan. 11th, 2016 02:56 amIt's really off-putting to see how entranced people are over the 1.2b lottery. Understandable, when you consider it has never hit the billion, it's all over the news, ect. Mind you, it's a great thing (those taxes, almost 40% of the proceeds, are pumped back into schools, social services, your community, ect.) but listening to people fantasize about what they'd do with the money is really...interesting to observe. I dunno, it's just interesting but I can't exactly pin point why. I can't exactly put my finger on it. I mean I get it. In a sense that...you know, when you've grown up with little, and have lived under the poverty line all your life and to think that maybe one day it doesn't have to be that way anymore...you dream. I used to often, actually. When you live in NYC, part of it is "faking it till you make it". It's strolling down 5th ave. It's the feeling you get, I can't quite describe it. You're surrounded by wealth and luxury and it's hard to not imagine it for yourself.
But still, when I think about the possibility of winning the lottery. I'm a realist you know. I play for the sake of playing, not with the possibvility of winning because it's very unlikely. But you know, there is always a bigger picture I try to look at. Today, though, I thought -- what if? Like, really, WHAT IF. And, it dawned on me that I am really content in my life and I probably would not make very large lifestyle chances. I like what I do right now and it's more along the lines of continuing what I do. Preservation. I told Thomas, "I'd probably stay in school." And, he KNEW that was probably true because that is where I find happiness. Purpose. Growth. Understanding. I'd probably keep doing what I'm doing. And, him too. He would probably keep working. Because he values what he does. Isn't that remarkable? I'd be very giving, as I am now, but on larger scales. Would it be nice? Sure, of course. But, man, do I love my life as it is.
But still, when I think about the possibility of winning the lottery. I'm a realist you know. I play for the sake of playing, not with the possibvility of winning because it's very unlikely. But you know, there is always a bigger picture I try to look at. Today, though, I thought -- what if? Like, really, WHAT IF. And, it dawned on me that I am really content in my life and I probably would not make very large lifestyle chances. I like what I do right now and it's more along the lines of continuing what I do. Preservation. I told Thomas, "I'd probably stay in school." And, he KNEW that was probably true because that is where I find happiness. Purpose. Growth. Understanding. I'd probably keep doing what I'm doing. And, him too. He would probably keep working. Because he values what he does. Isn't that remarkable? I'd be very giving, as I am now, but on larger scales. Would it be nice? Sure, of course. But, man, do I love my life as it is.
