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Good Fortune
Mar. 5th, 2017 05:35 pmWe've been receiving a lot of good fortune lately. Just yesterday, I discovered that my energy bill had been credited $150 because of over-payment. That is a huge deal. Like, that's a lot of money I don't have to worry about this month. However, I seem to feel even more anxious and hesitant than anything else - like I'm waiting for the universe to say, "Ha! You thought!" LOL.
I've sort of internalized this idea that we've got this dark cloud following us, a curse of some sort. Life is equally hard for us all, and I know that good and well. It is silly, irrational, and perhaps naive to think such a thing. How can I be cursed, when other humans suffer much worst existences than I in this world? And then when I really sit down and analyze this kind of thought process, I wonder, does any of this really serve as useful? I mean, not really. It does nothing for me or you.
Although it has not always been the case, and I've lived many years as a judgemental hard-ass, without an once of compassion in my body, today, I find the concept of some suffering more than others (a way of thinking that suggests weakness and self-absorption) to be absolute bullshit.
The cruelty of it all is we cannot measure pain. Regardless of what the hardship is, we all experience pain in our own way, regardless of the circumstance is. We deal with different obstacles differently, plain and simple.
Can a person who has never experienced what it is to live in what we consider a modern society, desire after it? How can they yearn for something they do not know? So in fact, the circumstance itself is quite irrelevant, is it not? Some of us overcome and manage well when met with one struggle, while manage very poorly with another.
Some would say, we're blinded by living in advanced societies, where the very elite (1%) dictate more or less what our reality is. We cannot see societal sicknesses, or our own "chains". I would never suggest that being born into a 1st world country is somewhat a better life, because in no way would it be, it would be very hard, indeed, but I would suggest that we do not see our limitations. I often wonder, what if I do not want this life, as many others do not. The reality of it all is we lack the skills, resources, and access to live off the grid. We may live in sturdy buildings, but we still trade labor for living, and we are still not rich by any means. I mean, it is in many ways illegal to simply decide, oh I don't want to live this way. To do something like that would be a form of anarchy.
I've sort of internalized this idea that we've got this dark cloud following us, a curse of some sort. Life is equally hard for us all, and I know that good and well. It is silly, irrational, and perhaps naive to think such a thing. How can I be cursed, when other humans suffer much worst existences than I in this world? And then when I really sit down and analyze this kind of thought process, I wonder, does any of this really serve as useful? I mean, not really. It does nothing for me or you.
Although it has not always been the case, and I've lived many years as a judgemental hard-ass, without an once of compassion in my body, today, I find the concept of some suffering more than others (a way of thinking that suggests weakness and self-absorption) to be absolute bullshit.
The cruelty of it all is we cannot measure pain. Regardless of what the hardship is, we all experience pain in our own way, regardless of the circumstance is. We deal with different obstacles differently, plain and simple.
Can a person who has never experienced what it is to live in what we consider a modern society, desire after it? How can they yearn for something they do not know? So in fact, the circumstance itself is quite irrelevant, is it not? Some of us overcome and manage well when met with one struggle, while manage very poorly with another.
Some would say, we're blinded by living in advanced societies, where the very elite (1%) dictate more or less what our reality is. We cannot see societal sicknesses, or our own "chains". I would never suggest that being born into a 1st world country is somewhat a better life, because in no way would it be, it would be very hard, indeed, but I would suggest that we do not see our limitations. I often wonder, what if I do not want this life, as many others do not. The reality of it all is we lack the skills, resources, and access to live off the grid. We may live in sturdy buildings, but we still trade labor for living, and we are still not rich by any means. I mean, it is in many ways illegal to simply decide, oh I don't want to live this way. To do something like that would be a form of anarchy.
