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Had a decent holiday weekend -
Jul. 5th, 2016 11:01 amBff and I grinded lowbies in ESO (which I'm really digging so far - but am still feeling skeptical about - will want to youtube some videos and test different gear sets in dungeons - really want to have a solid build idea/plan before maxing out).
Did a lot of cooking. I made a huge batch of "hawaiian" mac salad/macaroni salad. It's really enjoyable. I wish I had some BBQ with it. It's got a lot of crunch and a bit of sweetness to it. Also cooked up a whole bag of dried beans, spanish style. Planning to have it with some fish and roasted corn on the cob later on today.
Had a spectacular peanut butter banana smoothie yesterday that I digged. I'd love to get some almond milk, yogurt, more bananas and peanut butter and make smoothies the week. I think next time I will add a dash of .
Heard some fireworks. Didn't see any. Got some rain. That was nice.
I passed out yesterday in the early-afternoon and basically slept up until the late evening. I'd loveeee to force myself to stay up so I can re-regulate my sleep schedule. I think coffee could do it.
To be perfectly honest, in a way, I just love it. I get this nice quiet alone time in the early mornings. No one bothers me for a good 4-6 hours. I get to go out right when the stores open when the streets are empty, the air is crisp, birds chirping, and it's just a really peaceful time for me. For a second, I forget I'm in this concrete jungle . Honestly, I'm not sure why I feel so bad about not sleeping normal hours like a normal person. My mom and husband both nag me over it. LOL.
So late last week, our landlord or building owner, whoever, started gutting the walls of this apartment. The beautiful red brick is now exposed. However, it's been a challenge getting up and down the staircase with rubble and everywhere. It's def a health and safety - no doubt about it. There is also a ton of ash coming through under our door, as well as still all over the building. I'm sure it's not good to breath in. Was looking over our bill (which I hate doing - I mean who likes to look at bills, it's such a fucking downer LOL) and found out that we're getting charged a "small" legal fee from the time we were almost evicted. They also started charging a random $10 for having an AC in the unit. Just feels like such a rip off. We have broken tiles. Bad pipe. Clogged sink. Lights that don't work. Innercom that doesn't work. I just feel like...we are literally just paying for the roof and that's it. We're paying for the shelter, but everything else is kind of shit. We're for the shelter. Sigh* I can't even really complain. I shouldn't have expected better...
I'm starting to notice how much more corrupt and fucked up shit is. You know? KILLS the spirit. Kills my spirit. The little left I have. LOL. I also sort of opened up to my BFF this weekend about how I've been feeling (really shitty - moody is the word), and how it may not come out with her, or I may try my best to mask it with her, but it's there and I'm going through shit but I try to have a good attitude and sort of correct my behavior and/or catch myself when I'm being moody...and you know...I was hoping for some or anything that indicates this isn't going to be a long term thing...and she tells me "get used to that". I mean, damn. There is definately some toxicity going on here. I'm really feeding off of her shitty mood and I really need to learn how to notice this and distance myself when it's happening.
Did a lot of cooking. I made a huge batch of "hawaiian" mac salad/macaroni salad. It's really enjoyable. I wish I had some BBQ with it. It's got a lot of crunch and a bit of sweetness to it. Also cooked up a whole bag of dried beans, spanish style. Planning to have it with some fish and roasted corn on the cob later on today.
Had a spectacular peanut butter banana smoothie yesterday that I digged. I'd love to get some almond milk, yogurt, more bananas and peanut butter and make smoothies the week. I think next time I will add a dash of .
Heard some fireworks. Didn't see any. Got some rain. That was nice.
I passed out yesterday in the early-afternoon and basically slept up until the late evening. I'd loveeee to force myself to stay up so I can re-regulate my sleep schedule. I think coffee could do it.
To be perfectly honest, in a way, I just love it. I get this nice quiet alone time in the early mornings. No one bothers me for a good 4-6 hours. I get to go out right when the stores open when the streets are empty, the air is crisp, birds chirping, and it's just a really peaceful time for me. For a second, I forget I'm in this concrete jungle . Honestly, I'm not sure why I feel so bad about not sleeping normal hours like a normal person. My mom and husband both nag me over it. LOL.
So late last week, our landlord or building owner, whoever, started gutting the walls of this apartment. The beautiful red brick is now exposed. However, it's been a challenge getting up and down the staircase with rubble and everywhere. It's def a health and safety - no doubt about it. There is also a ton of ash coming through under our door, as well as still all over the building. I'm sure it's not good to breath in. Was looking over our bill (which I hate doing - I mean who likes to look at bills, it's such a fucking downer LOL) and found out that we're getting charged a "small" legal fee from the time we were almost evicted. They also started charging a random $10 for having an AC in the unit. Just feels like such a rip off. We have broken tiles. Bad pipe. Clogged sink. Lights that don't work. Innercom that doesn't work. I just feel like...we are literally just paying for the roof and that's it. We're paying for the shelter, but everything else is kind of shit. We're for the shelter. Sigh* I can't even really complain. I shouldn't have expected better...
I'm starting to notice how much more corrupt and fucked up shit is. You know? KILLS the spirit. Kills my spirit. The little left I have. LOL. I also sort of opened up to my BFF this weekend about how I've been feeling (really shitty - moody is the word), and how it may not come out with her, or I may try my best to mask it with her, but it's there and I'm going through shit but I try to have a good attitude and sort of correct my behavior and/or catch myself when I'm being moody...and you know...I was hoping for some or anything that indicates this isn't going to be a long term thing...and she tells me "get used to that". I mean, damn. There is definately some toxicity going on here. I'm really feeding off of her shitty mood and I really need to learn how to notice this and distance myself when it's happening.
