Losing who I am

But when I look out in the rain
I think about the past
I want it again

If I could best describe how I'm feeling right now, I'd say that I've been VIOLENTLY pulled from my roots. In so many ways, I feel so far away from myself, and that's hard, especially when you're the type of person who has spend their entire young life being so apologetically herself. I need to find my way back, basically.

Self care. Or whatever.

I think I started my day on the right foot. I emailed both my lawyer and Catholic Charities. I went to the store to buy groceries for cabbage rolls for lunch and pasta tonight. I had some chocolate almond milk, a bunch of mango, and a almond and dark chocolate bar (which was mediocre at best, I must add, and a total waste of money - don't go to the store on an empty stomach...) I'm alert and not sluggish, but I'm STILL hungry. Frankly, I think I'm just ready for lunch. I started working on a blog post, but it sounded really sassy, and I thought..let's stop while we're ahead. LOL.

In other news, I haven't shaved my legs in...I don't know...3 months? Probably more. I shave my legs about as often as I get my period...which isn't much. LOL. It's been more than one season since I had smooth legs and I'm tired of looking and feeling like my cat. So, I decided to try this hair removal cream, which I might add, is definitely something I wouldn't do. I'm very anal about my skin and won't put anything on it (hence why I don't wear make-up). But, I ain't even remotely in the mood to take a razor to this body. So, I went ahead and tested a small patch of hair and it was not a problem at all. No itching, redness, irritation. Nothing. Brilliant! Am I still destroying my skin? Oh, I'm sure. I can't do this again, that's for sure! LOLOLOL