Catapult me into the future
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december_solstice2.22.17
I already know 2017 is going to be strange. Perhaps not *strange*, but very, very different. It is terrifying, yet comforting at the same time. I feel very much like a leaf floating through the wind. Or a soul surrendering to fate.
I've been putting off writing about the results of the final court date until I really let it all sink in.
When I left the court house last week, I felt free. A big "finally". Everything is falling slowly into place. Thomas has a fantastic job. We're getting things moving with social services. Even at the sight of literal failure (yes, we lost the case, yes we must leave in a month - but that's kind of what we wanted - we don't want to stay), I know very well that we all parties won that day in a big way, including that poor attorney. There was nothing spoken of money in the final settlement. We came to no agreement about what is owed or not owed, in exchange for us leaving.
What is most peculiar about the entire situation is that we had a "promise letter" from Homebase that basically said "we'll pay the arrears", and he refused the money because in order to get it, he needs to supply us with a signed copy of our lease.
Can he bill us later? I suppose so, but even the judge says, it's unlikely because he won't fork out anymore money when he knows good and well we have nothing to pay him, and he's only wasting his time and money going after an amount we would simply continue to dispute.
So, more or less, we started our Homebase case and our HRA case. We should get a letter in the mail within 3-5 days. I also have a few places to go early next week as well. I got some calls to make as well. I got a few numbers from churches and other organizations I received from this kind lady at the court house.
It's definitely been a very busy few weeks. We've been traveling a lot, I've been so tired, sleeping a lot. I'm just trying to get as much done each day, while also keeping up with life in general (cleaning, cooking, trying to survive). Otherwise, over all, we're doing OK. Lights are on, gas is on, phone is on, internet is on, ect. We got laundry done. (We have a lot more to do honestly, but I can only afford to wash so much at a time...)
Money has a bit tight for the past few days, but we should have some luck at the grocery store tonight, and have a smooth rest of the week-weekend. Also waiting on my tax returns. I should get about $40 before the end of the week, and hopefully $220ish, my state refund, next week, at best. We got about $120. Some of which has to go directly to Thomas for work next week. He should also be getting a paycheck next week (probably Friday, for about $240, which covers only his first week). So, more or less, we should make it. We'll get through this. One step at a time.
In other news, I've started calling different moving services. Got an overall estimate of $270-$1000+ for the move depending on what we actually move. Chances are, we will move only the essentials. In reality, our furniture has extremely low value, and is not even worth enough to pay that cost for moving. We probably would save the most money by bringing FEW boxes and luggage with our clothing in it (after downsizing our closet). If push comes to shove, I have absolutely ZERO issue with taking a train and bringing all our belongings with a 3-day unlimited pass.
At the end of the day, I'm completely at a loss thinking about how much this landlord situation, from the VERY beginning, in 2013, until now, has made me completely insane. Like, my mental health has suffered so much from this entire situation. There is just so much - even beyond the court process. The overall condition of the apartment and our relationship with the landlord and just everything put together. It's so much shit. But, these are lessons being learned. Mistakes that are becoming clear. I'm just ready to close to this chapter. The money doesn't matter. The debt doesn't matter. What is debt to mental illness or unhappiness? Is fighting this, occupying such a large amount of time and energy thinking and worrying and being angry about these injustices and flaws in our justice system (and believe me, they have become very clear to me, in a borderline disgusting way, to a point where it creates an actual shock value for me), - is that all worth it, if I am so emotionally and mentally distressed? No. It's not. I am worth more.
Writing this, and letting it all come back, the years we have been here, it was, in no doubt, too-fucking-much, but I am continuing to heal.
I already know 2017 is going to be strange. Perhaps not *strange*, but very, very different. It is terrifying, yet comforting at the same time. I feel very much like a leaf floating through the wind. Or a soul surrendering to fate.
I've been putting off writing about the results of the final court date until I really let it all sink in.
When I left the court house last week, I felt free. A big "finally". Everything is falling slowly into place. Thomas has a fantastic job. We're getting things moving with social services. Even at the sight of literal failure (yes, we lost the case, yes we must leave in a month - but that's kind of what we wanted - we don't want to stay), I know very well that we all parties won that day in a big way, including that poor attorney. There was nothing spoken of money in the final settlement. We came to no agreement about what is owed or not owed, in exchange for us leaving.
What is most peculiar about the entire situation is that we had a "promise letter" from Homebase that basically said "we'll pay the arrears", and he refused the money because in order to get it, he needs to supply us with a signed copy of our lease.
Can he bill us later? I suppose so, but even the judge says, it's unlikely because he won't fork out anymore money when he knows good and well we have nothing to pay him, and he's only wasting his time and money going after an amount we would simply continue to dispute.
So, more or less, we started our Homebase case and our HRA case. We should get a letter in the mail within 3-5 days. I also have a few places to go early next week as well. I got some calls to make as well. I got a few numbers from churches and other organizations I received from this kind lady at the court house.
It's definitely been a very busy few weeks. We've been traveling a lot, I've been so tired, sleeping a lot. I'm just trying to get as much done each day, while also keeping up with life in general (cleaning, cooking, trying to survive). Otherwise, over all, we're doing OK. Lights are on, gas is on, phone is on, internet is on, ect. We got laundry done. (We have a lot more to do honestly, but I can only afford to wash so much at a time...)
Money has a bit tight for the past few days, but we should have some luck at the grocery store tonight, and have a smooth rest of the week-weekend. Also waiting on my tax returns. I should get about $40 before the end of the week, and hopefully $220ish, my state refund, next week, at best. We got about $120. Some of which has to go directly to Thomas for work next week. He should also be getting a paycheck next week (probably Friday, for about $240, which covers only his first week). So, more or less, we should make it. We'll get through this. One step at a time.
In other news, I've started calling different moving services. Got an overall estimate of $270-$1000+ for the move depending on what we actually move. Chances are, we will move only the essentials. In reality, our furniture has extremely low value, and is not even worth enough to pay that cost for moving. We probably would save the most money by bringing FEW boxes and luggage with our clothing in it (after downsizing our closet). If push comes to shove, I have absolutely ZERO issue with taking a train and bringing all our belongings with a 3-day unlimited pass.
At the end of the day, I'm completely at a loss thinking about how much this landlord situation, from the VERY beginning, in 2013, until now, has made me completely insane. Like, my mental health has suffered so much from this entire situation. There is just so much - even beyond the court process. The overall condition of the apartment and our relationship with the landlord and just everything put together. It's so much shit. But, these are lessons being learned. Mistakes that are becoming clear. I'm just ready to close to this chapter. The money doesn't matter. The debt doesn't matter. What is debt to mental illness or unhappiness? Is fighting this, occupying such a large amount of time and energy thinking and worrying and being angry about these injustices and flaws in our justice system (and believe me, they have become very clear to me, in a borderline disgusting way, to a point where it creates an actual shock value for me), - is that all worth it, if I am so emotionally and mentally distressed? No. It's not. I am worth more.
Writing this, and letting it all come back, the years we have been here, it was, in no doubt, too-fucking-much, but I am continuing to heal.
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