Housing Crisis, Progress & STUFF

[december_solstice]

It's 6:40am and I'm pretty much starving. Having some kefir for now. I basically ate nothing but lentils yesterday...

I'm going to wait until Thomas gets up to have breakfast. I haven't gotten too much done all weekend. I expect today to also be pretty relaxed. Let's hope I don't just crash in 6 hours...I've been sleeping through the afternoon and waking up in the evening again. Thing is, I love having the quiet time, it just sucks that Tom and I are on 2 totally different sleep/wake schedules. This also kind of ruins our meal plan! I guess I also just miss him...weird how much you miss just...being around someone...

So, I really think I'm going to push for midnight-2am bedtime...even if that means drinking way too much coffee. And, I will probably drink way too much. In a minute, I'm going to put the leftovers from yesterday in the fridge for ice coffee later.

Every few days, if not every day, I apply for a bunch of jobs. I did just that a second ago. Trying to figure out how long I've been doing this...(feels like forever, honestly), and how long it'll probably take... I remember when Thomas was looking for jobs...and he wasn't even applying as much and as often as me...and it feels like he was getting better luck with call backs and responses. The only responses I've gotten so far are scams! It's so discouraging. I've been thinking you know...how much simpler life was as a student. I really wish I didn't fuck up. I should have done more to avoid having tuition debt...I should have made a payment plan when I could have...and had my mom pay help me pay for it BEFORE all the REAL life problems arose. I shouldn't have left my job at TNS...you know, I bet I could get that job back if I wanted to...should I try? Heck, even if it's part-time. It's something. Something I DON'T have right now. Email Marie-Christine. Text Stella first. You know what, I think I will do just that. Why didn't I ever think of that? The Fall is about to start. Do it before they hire someone else. They did say, "you always have a job here". FUCK.

Like they say, hindsight is 20/20...it is easier to be knowledgeable about an event after it has happened. HAH.

Anywho, I've been doing a lot of research into non-profit organizations that work with homeless/homeless-prevention. I think my best bet is to get back in contact with CC (Catholic Charities), which is what I plan to do. I also want to send in a written request for another housing program, also with CC.

Biggest breakthrough ever? I have a god-damn lawyer. I know. Fantastic. This gives me hope that we can fix this entire mess. Everything is so overwhelming, it's difficult to see what the future looks like, and where our goals are. So far, I've learned a lot about tenant rights in NYC from our lawyer. There is always reassurance in knowing. And, I think we have a fight. If we do this right. Problem is, I've been so fucking sloppy. I can't locate a copy of the lease, which MAY put us up shit creek. I EVEN HAD A DIGITAL COPY...and I lost it. Oh hell. The good thing? We live in a rent-stabilized building, therefore, I can request some documents. Which is what I've done.  I'm still going to keep looking, gathering anything and everything. And prepare as best I can.

Still haven't heard anything from the landlord. Nothing at all from their office. I'm assuming they're just going to keep ducking me until we end up in court. I hope they're not aware I've been doing work on my end. I want them to think I'm oblivious and unprepared.

As for my writing, I'm starting to get back in my groove. I really need to find a more efficient way to hold on to all my writing. A flash drive is probably my best option. I've kept documents in cloud drives...in emails...and other programs...and it's very disorganized and I end up losing copies of my work. I have everything except the original copy of my first book! I haven't even been able to get back into my author account to grab a copy. I've contacted customer service...nothing. I really hope I won't have to buy a digital copy and re-type it. LOL. That would suck.

I got bills due this week that I gotta get paid...the lights and the web.

I still haven't called my Grandma.

I turn 26 in a week or so.

I feel like I REALLY need to redeem myself.

Comments

[ringlat.livejournal.com]

i've been sleeping in the day too, but i'm fixing my schedule today (met up with my one friend who i haven't seen in 2 years).

have you tried using mediafire or something? it means you'd be updating files a lot but it's one more option... i just keep everything in folders on my computer, folders within folders. i have no space left on my comp though and really need to clean it up.

i feel that need to redeem myself as well... this year has gotta be the year, dammit.

[outerspace-bae.livejournal.com]

It's so difficult to keep a steady sleep schedule! Basically it constantly keeps shifting a few hours each day. Yesterday I fell asleep at 3pm. The day before, noon. Today, probably 6 pm, and then finally, by mid-week, I'll be going to bed at 10pm+. My sleep schedule had pretty much always been bad, but it's been worse since I started online classes my senior year. I would be studying and writing all through the night.

I have never used mediafire. I also just sort of do what you do - save everything on my computer. I'm terrified of my computer dying on me and losing everything T_T

I definitely sympathize w/ others who feel the same (the need to redeem themselves), I feel like it's been a very challenging few years for many. Two of my best girlfriends are pretty much getting their butt kicked by life. It's hard seeing the fire burn out in others. It breaks my heart, honestly.

[ringlat.livejournal.com]

I've just been feeling, for basically my whole life, that I'm waiting for the future so I can start my "real life". As in, when I have money and don't have to depend on others (for that money or for my housing - ex. living with my wife's parents, or getting my rent paid for by my dad). I mean like, as it is right now I can't even fry seafood without my wife's family complaining about the smell, so I just keep thinking "in the future, when I can eat seafood every day if I want to". Y'know??

[outerspace-bae.livejournal.com]

I get that. I can understand why you might be feeling that so much right now. You literally ARE in limbo! If I were you, I would be trapped. I don't mean it lightly when I say living with in-laws or family in general is easy. Some people can do it, and love it, and NEED it. But when those people are abusive, and just really hard to live with/be around, it can really make your life a living hell. My husband lived in my parents house for...about a year, and it wasn't terrible, but there was some serious tension going on. Lots of fighting. Things were said that really shouldn't have never been said.

[ringlat.livejournal.com]

i do my best not to fight with these guys but they're getting SO incredibly bad. like the dad claims the fact that stuff is leaking out of the car when he drives "is a good thing".

[outerspace-bae.livejournal.com]

Oh my. That will backfire eventually. If you were to say something, would they get defensive immediately?

[ringlat.livejournal.com]

yeah, they either completely ignore you and stop talking, or get super defensive/pissed and claim they're correct and they know better than you because "their situation/car/whatever is different from everyone else's". as a made-up example, if a study says bread is bad for you, they're just like "but that study isn't about SWEDISH bread", and even when it is about swedish bread they just go "well it won't affect ME because I'M special".

like the mom, who's in horrible health, claims she doesn't have to eat healthy because "unlike us kids, she ate healthy when she was a kid".

and the dad, when confronted with the fact that literally ALL of his plants are sick and/or dying, just says "no that's normal!"

[outerspace-bae.livejournal.com]

Yeah man, that's rough. A lot of older generations tend to be very stuck in their ways...stubborn...just not willing or interested in new information. My grandpa smoke and drank A LOT since he was...age 10? Or so. And when his doctor told him it was making him sick, he stopped. When his doctor said his native Filipino dishes (heavy in sodium and fat) were giving him high blood pressure, he was able to embrace that information and embrace change! That's what I always liked about him. He lived a good long life! Died in his 90s! And he gave himself that extra 20 years by making changes like that. That's why I think it's important you know