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december_solsticeI don't really wanna over-write about what happened today, just sort of write enough to process the event, so I can move forward and start working on what needs to be done next.
So, what I've been writing about since...summer-ish? if not longer, is my experience with my landlord and going through housing court.
Short version: We received another adjournment with again, very little discussion. This time around, we're adjourning until mid-next month with the plan to go directly to trial where we will fight our case. If we lose, we will more or less have 5 days to come up some x amount of money or be evicted.
Long version: This has to be the worst experience in court so far with our landlord's attorney, which I might add is *not* the same person - but a random person from an agency that he hired to represent him. Today we waited a little over 2 hours before speaking with a woman who was unnecessarily mean-spirited. She said, "I hold all the cards." She showed no interest or responsibility for the repairs or condition of the apartment.
It's hard for me to put my thoughts or the experience into words. It was overall just a negative experience and I feel like how today turned out really lacked any kind of fairness or "justice", blah blah it's all bullshit anyway, but for the sake of "values", it was definitely "flawed" and "corrupt" - it did not feel like I was standing in a courthouse. I didn't really get a chance to negotiate as I was in no place to do so (according to their attorney). Basically what she said goes.
Clearly, I need to push back just as strongly. Tomorrow I will call Catholic Charities help line and Legal Aid Society. I am already in contact with Catholic Charities and Homebase (homeless prevention!), so we're well on our way. We just need to move as quickly as possible, basically. I want results this week, basically. I want to have things rolling sooner than later. We need public assistance and we're going to get it. Period. We're figuring it out and we're doing everything in our power to make this shit work. We also need JOBS and an attorney to represent us in court. I am also looking into the BBB and getting an inspection. We're going to push back strong, and I will no longer be afraid to do so.
I have been reflecting over this basically from the time we got on the train around 2p until now - 11:22p. I feel physically, emotionally, and mentally overwhelmed. Defeated would really be the most accurate term to describe how I am feeling. I feel like a failure. As much as I know about what has taken place, as intelligent as I am (vomit!), and knowing my own capacity for critical thinking, I still cannot quite wrap my head around this entire situation. If that makes any sense at all.
Underneath it all, I really do have a desire to pick myself up and turn things around. This goes beyond the landlord situation, but overall, just begin to care again about who I am, what I do, what I represent, how I want to exist in this world, and my overall future. But, I know that all of this requires one step at a time. One foot forward at a time. I think settings goals for 2017 would be beneficial but I am not there yet.
So, what I've been writing about since...summer-ish? if not longer, is my experience with my landlord and going through housing court.
Short version: We received another adjournment with again, very little discussion. This time around, we're adjourning until mid-next month with the plan to go directly to trial where we will fight our case. If we lose, we will more or less have 5 days to come up some x amount of money or be evicted.
Long version: This has to be the worst experience in court so far with our landlord's attorney, which I might add is *not* the same person - but a random person from an agency that he hired to represent him. Today we waited a little over 2 hours before speaking with a woman who was unnecessarily mean-spirited. She said, "I hold all the cards." She showed no interest or responsibility for the repairs or condition of the apartment.
It's hard for me to put my thoughts or the experience into words. It was overall just a negative experience and I feel like how today turned out really lacked any kind of fairness or "justice", blah blah it's all bullshit anyway, but for the sake of "values", it was definitely "flawed" and "corrupt" - it did not feel like I was standing in a courthouse. I didn't really get a chance to negotiate as I was in no place to do so (according to their attorney). Basically what she said goes.
Clearly, I need to push back just as strongly. Tomorrow I will call Catholic Charities help line and Legal Aid Society. I am already in contact with Catholic Charities and Homebase (homeless prevention!), so we're well on our way. We just need to move as quickly as possible, basically. I want results this week, basically. I want to have things rolling sooner than later. We need public assistance and we're going to get it. Period. We're figuring it out and we're doing everything in our power to make this shit work. We also need JOBS and an attorney to represent us in court. I am also looking into the BBB and getting an inspection. We're going to push back strong, and I will no longer be afraid to do so.
I have been reflecting over this basically from the time we got on the train around 2p until now - 11:22p. I feel physically, emotionally, and mentally overwhelmed. Defeated would really be the most accurate term to describe how I am feeling. I feel like a failure. As much as I know about what has taken place, as intelligent as I am (vomit!), and knowing my own capacity for critical thinking, I still cannot quite wrap my head around this entire situation. If that makes any sense at all.
Underneath it all, I really do have a desire to pick myself up and turn things around. This goes beyond the landlord situation, but overall, just begin to care again about who I am, what I do, what I represent, how I want to exist in this world, and my overall future. But, I know that all of this requires one step at a time. One foot forward at a time. I think settings goals for 2017 would be beneficial but I am not there yet.
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