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Yesterday I made turkey chili from scratch. We're having that tonight with the works. Surprised how much topping it with fresh green onions improves the dish. There is a market on the main street that sells these huge bunches, 4 for $1. I have them sitting in a glass on the kitchen window, and am so shocked by how quickly they're regrowing new sprouts, just by sitting in fresh water. I know it's naive, but I feel God's touch in everything I do. Even if it's just my brain's reaction to past traumas, but my heart and soul is open nonetheless.
I'm starting to get inquires coming in for editing services. I mean, it's only been a few days. Scar Tissue is going to get featured by another blogger on WordPress. And, I'm getting a lot of love/feedback on my newest installment. If these are all signs, I better abide by them. Because I feel like it's a sign. It's like the universe is telling me you better fucking work. Don't stop. Go, go, go. Don't stop. Go.
I also received an email today that bounced back. It doesn't really look like spam. I might put up a post to tell people to be careful of typos in their emails.
At this point, we're definitely over budget and we spent more of our nest egg in the first month of moving than I initially wanted to... but we're still in a very good place, and April looks good. Our electric bill came in at $28. Can you believe that shit? We can refill what we overspent next month, easily, if we are disciplined. Bills (not including rent) will run us about $160 for April. If I'm smart about meal planning and shopping, we should spend somewhere around $160-200 next month on food.
It's not easy being financially disciplined. Conscious spending, Jocelyn! I mean, I slip up, I want stuff, who doesn't? I'm used being dirt poor, so I'm tempted to buy stuff. My closet is empty. I have nothing. Naturally, I want to fill it. I want to have stuff. But, I'm trying to have restraint, to be smart. Trying to remember that having stuff =/= increasing my worth. I think I can erase my past by buying shit, by fooling others. Nope, can't do it. I've been homeless for a year, and nothing is going to change where I've been. I think that's why it's so important to do as much preparation as possible, because we're human.
I'm feeling a little regretful about what I recently bought from Rue 21. Mostly because everything I currently own is like super bum-ass-y. I bought a few super pretty higher-fashion pieces for work (and/or date nights) that I can't style with anything in my closet right now. Yeah, I know. Sigh&* So, now, I gotta spend more money, just to wear what I bought. Still, I know that IFFFFF I have a plan, it'll all work out just fine. I have to look at what I have, and figure this shit out. It's certainly stressful, you know? Because although I don't have shit, and I know I have to buy shit, I don't wanna just start accumulating shit either. Tbh, half of the stuff I do have is super old and worn out, and ready to be thrown out. And, I don't have much to begin with. So literally every time I go outside, I'm stuck wearing the same thing! And, well, that's not very efficient, is it?
I did find a few really good pieces from H&M, which I'm super happy about. I'm simple when it comes to dressing myself, you know? I like comfortable. I like to not think so hard about dressing myself. But I still want to look well put together because I know what I wear impacts how people think and receive me.
I have my eye on a few things from Old Navy. Anyhow, now I'm going to go stare at the stuff in my Old Navy shopping cart for the next 30 minutes.
I'm starting to get inquires coming in for editing services. I mean, it's only been a few days. Scar Tissue is going to get featured by another blogger on WordPress. And, I'm getting a lot of love/feedback on my newest installment. If these are all signs, I better abide by them. Because I feel like it's a sign. It's like the universe is telling me you better fucking work. Don't stop. Go, go, go. Don't stop. Go.
I also received an email today that bounced back. It doesn't really look like spam. I might put up a post to tell people to be careful of typos in their emails.
At this point, we're definitely over budget and we spent more of our nest egg in the first month of moving than I initially wanted to... but we're still in a very good place, and April looks good. Our electric bill came in at $28. Can you believe that shit? We can refill what we overspent next month, easily, if we are disciplined. Bills (not including rent) will run us about $160 for April. If I'm smart about meal planning and shopping, we should spend somewhere around $160-200 next month on food.
It's not easy being financially disciplined. Conscious spending, Jocelyn! I mean, I slip up, I want stuff, who doesn't? I'm used being dirt poor, so I'm tempted to buy stuff. My closet is empty. I have nothing. Naturally, I want to fill it. I want to have stuff. But, I'm trying to have restraint, to be smart. Trying to remember that having stuff =/= increasing my worth. I think I can erase my past by buying shit, by fooling others. Nope, can't do it. I've been homeless for a year, and nothing is going to change where I've been. I think that's why it's so important to do as much preparation as possible, because we're human.
I'm feeling a little regretful about what I recently bought from Rue 21. Mostly because everything I currently own is like super bum-ass-y. I bought a few super pretty higher-fashion pieces for work (and/or date nights) that I can't style with anything in my closet right now. Yeah, I know. Sigh&* So, now, I gotta spend more money, just to wear what I bought. Still, I know that IFFFFF I have a plan, it'll all work out just fine. I have to look at what I have, and figure this shit out. It's certainly stressful, you know? Because although I don't have shit, and I know I have to buy shit, I don't wanna just start accumulating shit either. Tbh, half of the stuff I do have is super old and worn out, and ready to be thrown out. And, I don't have much to begin with. So literally every time I go outside, I'm stuck wearing the same thing! And, well, that's not very efficient, is it?
I did find a few really good pieces from H&M, which I'm super happy about. I'm simple when it comes to dressing myself, you know? I like comfortable. I like to not think so hard about dressing myself. But I still want to look well put together because I know what I wear impacts how people think and receive me.
I have my eye on a few things from Old Navy. Anyhow, now I'm going to go stare at the stuff in my Old Navy shopping cart for the next 30 minutes.
