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I feel like I've wasted the entire weekend being overcome by fear, stress, and anxiety over the landlord situation. The funny thing is - it's probably not really as scary as I make it out to be. I think because he was threatening and because I was caught off guard, I'm having a very hard time coping. Still, I don't want to be fixated on this nonstop either. (I wrote up a statement that I'd like to share in hopes I could get some advice, but I'm also afraid of what risk that could pose for me.)

So far, my husband's mother and grandmother know about what's going on. So does my mother. And best friend. I think my goal is to just make this entire situation known. I want to even discuss it with my grandma to see if there is anyone in the family who can provide me with legal advice. Also tell my dad about it too. I think by bringing it out in the open, I can open doors for myself as well as gain some peace of mind.

I'm really going to need to start yoga tomorrow and just overall partake in more calming activities. Also making a schedule and sticking very close to it will help me stay focused on small daily tasks/goals to complete...and hopefully prevent restlessness I've been experiencing. I've been trying to write, and though I was doing phenomenal last week, since the run in with the landlord...I can't concentrate enough to write. Perhaps I should pencil in even my writing goals. For 2-3 days I could work on 1 project, while focusing on something else for the rest of the week?

I haven't been able to distract myself in the slightest. Gaming, Netflix, reading, nothing. At the same time, I basically feel as if I have a million things to do. What's interesting though is the fact that I've been having these small little strokes of luck. Perhaps it's a way to remind myself that...it's not all bad? I don't know why I try to analyze life in that sort of way. It's all bullshit LOL

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There is evidence all over the web that my landlord is a crook. shaddy. not very honest person.

FUCK