yeah i was reaaaally frustrated (again) but i've calmed down now so i deleted it haha. still i'm completely serious about trying to distance myself from almost all americans (and americanized people) as much as possible...
i too feel like it's holding me back. i mean, you're influenced - whether you like it or not - by who you're around. if the whole country's one way then you're going to end up that way too and instead of getting worse i want to get better. i've been thinking for YEARS now that i need to just stop using english entirely so i can't even meet these people, but other than general frustration i haven't really had any reason to quit using english (it's still harder to use swedish, and i don't actually care about getting any better at swedish). plus i also used to have a lot more hope for "foreigners who speak english" not being americanized and stuff, now i know i shouldn't have much hope there either. people are watching a TON more american TV and stuff than they did even just 5 years ago now and their eating's getting more and more americanized too.
now that i'm going to be in japan for a year and theoretically almost never online i think i'd better give "avoiding everything english" a shot. i'll still post on a couple places but i'm going to replace my twitter, probably quit skype almost entirely (japanese people use "line" anyway) etc... i don't want to sit here for 50 years mad at the english-speaking world, i just want to leave it and live happily if that's what it takes. i mean, it's even just simple stuff like, an american posted on a japanese-learning community here on DW that i'm on, and i went to help them and they couldn't even read what i wrote or follow my directions basically, and then i went to their blog and saw that they're so approving of/comfortable with the american military that they literally are afraid of living in a place where there's no strong military community...? what the heck?
plus the longer this stuff goes on the more i know literally everyone on a bad diet is crazy. EVERYONE has panic attacks, super bad health, mental diseases, gets angry super easily or can't understand even simple sentences (their brains are so messed up they have no reading/listening comprehension left), and usually is really lazy and depressed. like, why should i live in a way where i have to deal with these people every time i want to talk to someone. and again it's not that i hate "everyone", it's just... i'm so tired of dealing with hopeless people. i try helping people OVER and OVER and then no one takes my advice on anything, for example. i'm not so conceited that i think i'm always right but c'mon, if you're a normal person with a normal salary living in an apartment you can try making sourdough one time and see how you like it. it doesn't hurt. i don't know why these people think it hurts. sigh.
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Date: 2017-06-15 06:43 pm (UTC)i too feel like it's holding me back. i mean, you're influenced - whether you like it or not - by who you're around. if the whole country's one way then you're going to end up that way too and instead of getting worse i want to get better. i've been thinking for YEARS now that i need to just stop using english entirely so i can't even meet these people, but other than general frustration i haven't really had any reason to quit using english (it's still harder to use swedish, and i don't actually care about getting any better at swedish). plus i also used to have a lot more hope for "foreigners who speak english" not being americanized and stuff, now i know i shouldn't have much hope there either. people are watching a TON more american TV and stuff than they did even just 5 years ago now and their eating's getting more and more americanized too.
now that i'm going to be in japan for a year and theoretically almost never online i think i'd better give "avoiding everything english" a shot. i'll still post on a couple places but i'm going to replace my twitter, probably quit skype almost entirely (japanese people use "line" anyway) etc... i don't want to sit here for 50 years mad at the english-speaking world, i just want to leave it and live happily if that's what it takes. i mean, it's even just simple stuff like, an american posted on a japanese-learning community here on DW that i'm on, and i went to help them and they couldn't even read what i wrote or follow my directions basically, and then i went to their blog and saw that they're so approving of/comfortable with the american military that they literally are afraid of living in a place where there's no strong military community...? what the heck?
plus the longer this stuff goes on the more i know literally everyone on a bad diet is crazy. EVERYONE has panic attacks, super bad health, mental diseases, gets angry super easily or can't understand even simple sentences (their brains are so messed up they have no reading/listening comprehension left), and usually is really lazy and depressed. like, why should i live in a way where i have to deal with these people every time i want to talk to someone. and again it's not that i hate "everyone", it's just... i'm so tired of dealing with hopeless people. i try helping people OVER and OVER and then no one takes my advice on anything, for example. i'm not so conceited that i think i'm always right but c'mon, if you're a normal person with a normal salary living in an apartment you can try making sourdough one time and see how you like it. it doesn't hurt. i don't know why these people think it hurts. sigh.