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 5/31 

 

I honestly can't even believe it's June, but I am glad summer is here. It's been cold, overcast, or raining for so long - gotta admit it gets depressing after a while. It's already 2a and I really should be getting to bed. Tomorrow, I have to call the doctors around 8:30a to sort out a bunch of stuff. Gotta try and get Thomas an appointment, update our phone numbers, find out when my appointment was supposed to be (I'm almost positive it's tomorrow at like 1p...hopefully lmfao), and find out if we recieved any results from the tests the other week. 

 

So, it's quite clear I caught some kind of bug because Thomas got sick almost immediately after I got better. He was vommiting just as much as I, maybe a little bit less, and felt ill all Tuesday. He missed work for 2 days, and may possibly miss work again tomorrow. I would prefer him to take some time off, rest, and fully recover because I know for a fact that shit fucked me up. Like, this happened to me on Sunday, and only today do I actually feel fully recovered. The problem is, his job requires him to bring in a doctor's note - which isn't a problem, thankfully for us, but it's kind of a dick move, and tells a lot about the employer - they should know a lot of young people simply aren't insured or can even justify the financial investment of going to the doctor. Anywho he projectile vommited all over the room, on the bedding, all over the bathroom, like - it was a disaster. Total mess. I had to bring everything to the washers. It was just yikes. 

 

I look a break and now it's almost 3a. Sigh* I have to get to bed soon if I want 5hrs of sleep.

 

About half-way through the month I started a new habit tracker (basically a chart that helps me keep track of daily tasks). It doesn't actually do much in terms of helping me get stuff done, I mean it does, but not in a very big way - I wouldn't consider it "effective". It's more of an analysis, if anything - a way for me to see patterns. Anyway, I put yoga on there and I haven't done any yoga at all since the 23rd. I want to make a bigger effort to fit it into my schedule. It really doesn't have to be often, but I want to be doing it. 

 

I've also been using the Daylio and Flo app to help me keep a better record of moods/mental health, sex (frequency - which I was suprised by; we've had sex 5-6 times, give or take, since the 17th - I just assumed more stress would = less sex), health (nutrition), ect.  - 

 

Since we arrived here, we've been playing a thunderstorm playlist on Spotify and it's been really helping me sleep at night and putting me at ease whenever I need to chill. We've also tried the Fallout playlist which I also really like. The idea is you're being transformed someplace else, and, in turn, hopefully, to sleep. I've been getting headaches when trying to fall asleep, and I think it might be due to forcing myself awake to long and probably watching TV when I'm very tired. I'm trying to resist the urge to pop a Tylenol before bed every night. I used to have a small problem with over-the-counter drug use when I was a teen/young adult - just taking them with every tiny discomfort and developing a bit of an addiction. Or to help me sleep.

 

Anywho, I should really try to get some shut eye if I want to be up in 4.5 hrs. I haven't really got much of a plan for tomorrow accept the doctor's and possibly going for a smoothie after. I haven't much of a clue about lunch or dinner. I also need to run back to the laundromat sometime soon too. I want to get some writing done. Any kind of writing, really. But, I'm really thinking about starting Part 2 of my Lulu book project thing. Shelter life.  But seriouslyyyy I need to get my ass to sleep. Pronto.