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december_solstice) wrote2016-06-22 04:07 am
december_solstice) wrote2016-06-22 04:07 am
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So, I downloaded this app called "WeekPlan" in the Windows store. There isn't too much to say about it. It's a pretty basic calender app with a few other features for making to-do lists and note taking. I've been trying to do some daily life planning with it, and just trying to overall organize things. I feel so overwelmed by everything. In the same breath, I feel like I'm not really making much progress in my life right now. I created these daily checklists. I have a checklist for everything from personal goals, to things like cleaning schedules...the idea is to be more aware of my day-to-day. I really need to motivate myself these days.
Sometimes I am curious about whether or not I'm suffering from depression (or anxiety - which I know and am aware I have - that and "mild" OCD), but am not entirely aware of it. I've been moody and normal tasks are difficult. I feel tired a lot, even though I have been being very self aware of my water intake, as well as my fruits and vegtables. I guess you could say I've lost my fire. It's difficult to stay motivated. It's in part because the people around me, my peers, are kind of in the same boat mentally and emotionally. I get that life is hard for everyone but mutual support/motivation is SO IMPORTANT. My husband has been moody, as well as my bff. My parents usually have nothing positive to share. It's all weighing heavily on me. I feel like I'm crawling out of a hole, and when I'm reaching, reaching for those to help me up, they instead layer more weight on my shoulders. And in a way it feels like they're asking me to carry theirs, even though I know that isn't how it is. Fuck, I just want someone to carry some of mine. I feel like the efforts I make are not seen.
In other news, I've checked the application statues of jobs I've applied to at NYU and TNS and no luck. About 1/2 of the positions have been filled, and the rest are still pending. I should really keep applying with NYU in other departments on a weekly basis because they will probably begin looking to hire for both the Summer and the Fall. I sent my Dad some really good fudge for Father's Day and also wrote a nice note on FB - he didn't seem all to thrilled about it. I also applied as a researcher, which I also have pretty direct experience doing. I am crossing my fingers and toes on this. I really need to do laundry too. I could have been more productive today but it takes so much effort. Having enough energy to do something as simple as cooking meals is tough. Shit, maybe it's the heat? Could it be that simple?
Sometimes I am curious about whether or not I'm suffering from depression (or anxiety - which I know and am aware I have - that and "mild" OCD), but am not entirely aware of it. I've been moody and normal tasks are difficult. I feel tired a lot, even though I have been being very self aware of my water intake, as well as my fruits and vegtables. I guess you could say I've lost my fire. It's difficult to stay motivated. It's in part because the people around me, my peers, are kind of in the same boat mentally and emotionally. I get that life is hard for everyone but mutual support/motivation is SO IMPORTANT. My husband has been moody, as well as my bff. My parents usually have nothing positive to share. It's all weighing heavily on me. I feel like I'm crawling out of a hole, and when I'm reaching, reaching for those to help me up, they instead layer more weight on my shoulders. And in a way it feels like they're asking me to carry theirs, even though I know that isn't how it is. Fuck, I just want someone to carry some of mine. I feel like the efforts I make are not seen.
In other news, I've checked the application statues of jobs I've applied to at NYU and TNS and no luck. About 1/2 of the positions have been filled, and the rest are still pending. I should really keep applying with NYU in other departments on a weekly basis because they will probably begin looking to hire for both the Summer and the Fall. I sent my Dad some really good fudge for Father's Day and also wrote a nice note on FB - he didn't seem all to thrilled about it. I also applied as a researcher, which I also have pretty direct experience doing. I am crossing my fingers and toes on this. I really need to do laundry too. I could have been more productive today but it takes so much effort. Having enough energy to do something as simple as cooking meals is tough. Shit, maybe it's the heat? Could it be that simple?
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I've also got a cold now, for the first time in 2 years. I don't know why the heck I even have one as no one else in the house is sick... it's really just a sore throat, headache and dry eyes. Sigh.
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Oh no! I hate catching colds. Perhaps it's allergies? I get them a lot. NYC is so congested and I live directly across the street from a huge elementary school. It's like gem city. D:
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At some point there's gonna be riots over this worldwide joblessness if no one does anything... At least I know that if I just finish something (or a bunch of somethings), I can earn money online, but a lot of people don't know they can do that. Like there's this one guy working really hard on a book and he thinks he can only get it published by asking actual companies so he's been pitching the book to them and they don't want it, and I'm like, why not use Lulu...
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On the real though, it shouldn't take 4-6 months to find a job (you actually want). 3+ months seems to be the norm now-a-days though, and what you end up getting is usually far from your ideal and/or what makes sense considering your background and experience.
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Lulu, as far as I know, is great. You don't pay any printing fees yourself as it's print-on-demand, so the company prints the customer's copy only when they order it. They have printing factories in different parts of the world so they'll use the ones that're closer to where the customer lives, t save on shipping.
You can sell PDF versions and as far as I know, versions for E-readers as well, and you can get the books listed on Amazon or at least one of those other big book-selling places. You can get ISBNs, and if you really want to, pay $100-$300 or something for them to market, proofread and advertise your book for you.
The only real downside is that some of their paper/printing types are only available in certain book sizes or only in the US, so if you were to sell something that only the US headquarters can print for example, the shipping cost would be really high for everyone from everywhere else.
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i mean, i see a lot of books that i would buy if they didn't cost $40 (and when you know that the bookstore actually marked up the original price by $20, ugh)
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My wife's almost the same way as me now, she also never had any problems with sugar before but she quit it a while after me and now if she does ever eat it she gets digestion problems, heartbeat problems, sleeping problems and sometimes panic attacks... "and zits that don't go away for 5 weeks". This was confirmed again the other day as dad made potato sallad and said we could eat it, conveniently forgetting that the pickles or whatever in it had been soaked in sugar-water : /
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